surgery

so I'm a week out from my emergency appendectomy. Speedy Recovery should be a phrase never ever uttered to a recovering person. i suppose it soothes only the person saying it, as for the recovering, well we've already lost track of time, speed doent matter. initially, there was excruciating pain and bouts with consciences. now i feel slightly sane and a little less pained. I'm still staying at my ex's. hes actually been a good nurse to me....as far as men do with those sorts of things. "hey, i need a warm compress!" he throws a soaking wet towel at me. At this point i could be a ghost in the house. even the dog looks through me. The boy no longer comes over to ask how I'm doing, I'm suppose he has deduced that I've grafted into the couch. he does sleep at my feet at night though, so i suppose in his own boy way, he cares. and i get to watch it sleep during my bouts of night/day confusion like a crazed mother hawk. If he knew, I'm sure he would be creeped out. I've got collapsed veins in both arms, thanks highly trained nurses at Northwestern, you're the best! they decided to send me home with my stomach drain sill in that i have to drain and have secretary Cody record. the incisions Ive reconciled with my vanity but who knows, i might try and convince my insurance that the scars are a preexisting condition and need to be removed Post haste. there have been no solid foods to pass these lips in a week thank you kindly. only liquids. don't wanna upset my stomach, tongue thrush or metallic mouth. that would be rude of me. I'm at a point where i can hunchback my way to the bathroom and back without assistance, so yay me! It kinda humbles you to know that the guy u dumped has to watch without the audacity of humor as u struggle from the couch, robe falling open, exposing, ashy, possibly dehydrated skin, a patched up, bloated belly perched atop 2 feet that the surgeon decided in some moment of workplace fetish impulse to remove the polish from ONE toe. The only pleasure i take, is in knowing that the only other person more vain than me is going through a similar ordeal :) get better serif! luv u and yes, you have to deal with my spelling errors...asshole who mentally spellchecks everything until.......